Chapter ???

Well I got it again. It’s called moving fever I think lol. No, this was unexpected, but it was a pleasant surprise. Advertisements

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This Time…

I find myself alone again, maybe the first time since I moved to California. This month is very emotional for me. This is August. The 12th was Miss E’s bday, the 16th my daddy’s. Then the dreaded 26th. That day all over again. My new beau seems to understand at moments. I believe he just […]

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The Sixth Move…

Well, this will be the sixth move since William died in our house, in our bed, where I found him. Now I’m a nomad, searching for answers that I may or may not find. Yeah, Bob and I got into it, again. He’d been drinking. I tried to get out of the conversation, but it […]

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Gloomy Weather…

It’s been windy and cloudy, some sun. Not enough to put your suit on and layout on the beach, at least not this chick. I guess I’m just going to come straight out and tell you guys I’ve been on a date. It was ok. I didn’t die. Neither did they, lol. I’m ready to […]

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Numbers, Faces, Sounds…

I now often think I truly am going crazy or at least that what I’ve heard people call me. I don’t care anymore. Today is one of my numbers, the 26th. Not my favorite number, it’s the day that William shot himself after he opened the text I had sent him. It said- I love […]

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I Can’t Believe This…

My brother finally made in around 8 pm Saturday night. I got to see him a couple of hours. He was actually here to see a lady from Vietnam he had been introduced to several years ago. She lives here in San Diego, but my brother in living in Vietnam, getting ready to move to […]

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We Knew…

Today has been very surreal. A friend I thought I made is actually not a friend, just someone to let me know I’m fucking up again. I was told not to trust anyone and I should have known better. These words were not given lightly, but firmly. Not to intimidate, but to help guide me. […]

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It’s Clearer Now…

I was walking down one the streets to the ocean. They all have little shops, with all kinds of different motifs. This was a book, crystal, tarot, sage kind of store. They had a reader and I’d stopped another day, but didn’t stay. Later I walked by and I had to stop. She says I […]

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I Just Picture Him…

I’m hanging out at a Starbucks, writing. Something I don’t do very much anymore. I actually have an appointment with a therapist at 9:30 pm. I know sorta weird, but it was this or wait until next week. So, I chose tonight at 9:30 pm. I think I might need just a little bit of […]

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I Thought I Was Over It…

I really thought with everything that happened in the past week, I had gotten everything out of my system. But, I should have known better, because it’s me. I’ve never been able to keep my feelings to myself for too long. It’s just not in my general make up. I don’t lie well, unless I’m […]

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