I FORGIVE YOU WILLIAM…

William, I’m not going to say it doesn’t hurt me, I forgive you for every cute smile I’ve missed. I forgive you for the disagreements, then the makeups you made us Miss. I forgive you for all the books I haven’t read. I forgive you for my Broken heart. I forgive you for my soul…

Dear Boogs;

Please call me. I miss you. Pinkie swear… Love, Mammie

My Soul Is Fractured…

Chapter ???

Well I got it again. It’s called moving fever I think lol. No, this was unexpected, but it was a pleasant surprise.

Am I Dreaming???

I am trying not to be negative, be supportive, try to listen carefully, not think my way is the only way! I’ve seen and done quite a bit in my life, but today I’m being tested.I barely slept last night due to NO HEAT. It was 66 in the hall, but inside my apartment it…

Today…

Today I went to one of several appointments. I went early believe it or not. My appointment was at 11 I got there at 9. I didn’t know what to expect I wanted to make sure I was in the right place. The girl who let me in the door was very nice. Very young…

Advocate…

I don’t understand coming or going half the time, but I have a lot of advocates. I don’t know why I’m not able to communicate well with people anymore. I seem to have a little patience, as if I had any to start with. Being bipolar and manic at that, and not medicated I should…

Merry Christmas…

I used to love Christmas, but this year I don’t like it anymore. It’s just another day. I know it’s Jesus’s birthday and I’m happy that he died for our sins. But I don’t like this holiday. People are just fake. No one cares about anybody but themselves. It’s unbelievable to me the people treat…

In Three Days…

It will be three days until the morning of William’s suicide. Suicide has been a hard thing for me to grasp for the past two years. I’ve made so many stories up in my head I really don’t know what I believe anymore.  I’ve found a gentleman who makes me feel like a woman and…

Reminders…

I have a reminder app. I looked at it yesterday it already had a reminder…My last name is Bryant It was already reminding me of my last name. Makes you wonder what that could mean. It could mean so many things. I speculate that it would mean that I’m strong, resourceful, intelligent, classy and down…