HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM!!!

Today would have been my husband, William’s, 55th birthday. He hated surprises and parties, but a good home cooked meal with fried okra and meatloaf was good for him, Throw in some macaroni and cheese or my potato salad and deviled eggs and him and E would barely let me get them to the table,…

I FORGIVE YOU WILLIAM…

William, I’m not going to say it doesn’t hurt me, I forgive you for every cute smile I’ve missed. I forgive you for the disagreements, then the makeups you made us Miss. I forgive you for all the books I haven’t read. I forgive you for my Broken heart. I forgive you for my soul…

Are We Ok???

I remember asking him. Honey are we okay.? Are we going to be okay? Emma was going to be in college and we would have the house to ourselves…Everything has been taken care of…

My Soul Is Fractured…

Chapter ???

Well I got it again. It’s called moving fever I think lol. No, this was unexpected, but it was a pleasant surprise.

Am I Dreaming???

I am trying not to be negative, be supportive, try to listen carefully, not think my way is the only way! I’ve seen and done quite a bit in my life, but today I’m being tested.I barely slept last night due to NO HEAT. It was 66 in the hall, but inside my apartment it…

Today…

Today I went to one of several appointments. I went early believe it or not. My appointment was at 11 I got there at 9. I didn’t know what to expect I wanted to make sure I was in the right place. The girl who let me in the door was very nice. Very young…

Advocate…

I don’t understand coming or going half the time, but I have a lot of advocates. I don’t know why I’m not able to communicate well with people anymore. I seem to have a little patience, as if I had any to start with. Being bipolar and manic at that, and not medicated I should…

Today, I Will Have My Answers…

As it happens I have a short term memory problem. This came into play when I was asked by Bari to be her wingman Halloween 2014. William had been gone slightly over a year. I had not been OUT since then. The sound I heard that morning? I lost 95% of the hearing in my…

What Now???

So what do you do when you’ve tried everything else? I’m moving AGAIN. I’ve moved 10 times, including being homeless and the 2 months in jail. Today of all days I’m doing it again. Today is the day William was buried. Our 5th wedding anniversary would be October 27th this year. Five years! And the…